I Can

Somehow I ended up being a runaway girl
Destined to leave my footprints on this world.
I've got a little girl Dixie soul with a broken heart that some boy stole.
Missing pieces don't slow me down of dare contain my fire.
I've got a passion for life and wide eyed wild desire.
I can press on and be strong. Just keep on keepin on.
I can fly with a broken wing. The higher I fly the more I sing.
I can carry your memory around with me forever if I want to.
Yes I can, I can.
I've made my share of thoughtless mistakes,
Making wrong turns no matter which path I take.
I do my things my own damn way. Bending the rules, refusing to stay.
The good Lord never leaves my rebellious side.
With his helping hand and his guiding light.
I can press on and be strong. Just keep on keepin on.
I can fly with a broken wing. The higher I fly the more I sing.
I can carry the weight of the world on my shoulders if I have to.
Yes I can, I can.
I wouldn't be who I am if it wasnt for what I've done. I've broken hearts and let you down but I'm strong and I'm free and nobody's gonna break me.
I can press on and be strong. Just keep on keepin on.
I can fly with a broken wing. The higher I fly the more I sing.
I can carry your memory with me forever if I want to.
I can hold the weight of the world if I have to.
Yes I can. I can.

p90x day 3

^^ Basically how I felt trying to do yoga. ^^

My whole body still hurts but yoga made me melt. Once again I couldnt do the whole dvd (I actually got bored before I just couldnt physically do it) but I did watch for awhile afterwards to learn the next couple moves for next Wednesday. I'm loving this! I'm not even kidding.The pain is real, the workouts are intense and I'm super excited to see how long it takes to get to my goal.
Goal being to NOT look like a cow doing yoga!!

p90x day 2

Today was plyometrics or jump training. I could only do half of the DVD. My legs are shaking and I've gracefully fallen down the steps a few times :) My legs are killing me, my entire body hurts BUT I can feel every muscle (in a good way) I can feel the tenseness and it feels like I'm toning up. Of course I can't see anything now but itll come I'm sure.

PRE p90x:

Waist: 29 inches

Hips: 35 inches

Arms: 11 inches

Thighs: 21 inches

Words of wisdom..

*My best friend wrote this to me in her blog and Im reposting it in attempts to let it sink into my head. Love you Elizabeth, thank you for being there when everybody else left. <3*

Ashton,

I love what you are, and what you do and how you try. I've seen your kindness and your strength that carries you through. I've seen the best of you. I've seen the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are. And I love you. Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,

so love the people who treat you right and forget the ones that don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. Ya know, we hold onto things for so long because we’re scared something so great won’t happen twice.Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what's not-won't. Love is worth fighting for but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something real. Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for. 

Whenever that guy comes, that feels right, quit cheating yourself out of the best thing that could ever happen to you, quit cheating him out of what he's wanted for so long, and just fall. Fall hard, fall long, and fall forever.

If I don't say it enough..

I know friendship is important and I care about you all so much. I know I don't always let you know.  For what I don't express enough, "This is it!":

enc & smg: "You're brave and your beautiful. So hold your head high, dont ever let them defy that light in your eyes. Love yourself, give 'em hell. You can take on this world, you just stand and be strong and fight like a girl. Oh, with style and grace; kick ass and take names.. Yes I'll stand and be strong, no I'll never give up. I will conquer with love and I'll fight like a girl."
You two are my best friends and I dont know what I would do without the two of you. I can be myself and be silly and crazy. I can vent and rant and throw my fits and cry and raid your pantry and not feel bad at all when I want to sing loud or eat a brownie loaf at 2 am. I can watch cartoon movies till the wee hours of the morning, get a little tipsy in public and you still let me crash on your couch. We've bonded in the strangest ways and we're probably a little closer than we should be but that is OK!! I love you both.

ama & mes: "When the night time comes around and your feelin' like an only child just know; I'll be there for you. And I'd walk through hell and high water, wash away with the tide. I could lose a damn war all by myself if you were on the other side. So in the mornin' when the rooster crows pack your bags and get ready to go. If your walkin' through hell and high water, please dont do it alone."
My baby cousins, I'm so proud of you both. The three of us have that weird connection that makes us inseparable. When the world turns its back on us, we turn our back on da world! (~Timon and Pumba) All for one and one for all. <3 all my love.


jlm: "I'm an American soldier, an American. Beside my brothers and my sisters, I will proudly take a stand. When liberties in jeopardy  I'll always do whats right. I'm out here on the front lines, sleep in peace tonight. An American soldier, an American."
Schnookums, I'm so proud of you. No matter where you are, you'll always have a place in my heart. Get out there, kick ass and come home. We've got mud puddles to play in. ;)

lnm: "When the world gets sharp and tries to cut you down to size and makes you feel like giving in, I will stay, I will rain. I will wash the words and pain away... I'll open up and be your parachute and I'll never let you down." 
I admire your strength and your heart. You deserve a smile. 
"I'm here to help you notice the rainbow." :)

aunt bean: "If your goin' through hell, keep on going. Dont slow down, if your scared dont show it. You might get out before the devil even knows your there."
I thank God for you every day. You have no idea how much you help me and inspire me. I know how strong I am when I see the strength in you. We're going through hell right now but between you, me and God, we got this. <3

I want to be that girl...

.. the girl that makes you sing, "She's my kind of rain.. She's my lost companion, she's my dreamin' tree. Together in this brief eternity. Summer days, winter snow; she's all things to behold. She's my kind of rain like love from a drunken sky, confetti fallin' down all night. She's my kind of rain."

I want to be everything.. everything you ever wanted, everything you need.. the hand that your holding when your on your knees and praying, the answer to your prayers and the song that your playing. 
If I could only be that girl that made you think about what it is, that "something bout a woman, yea, some kind of sweet little somethin' that I may never understand. Yea some kind of gift they're given makes this life worth living that makes a man a man. Oh, I'm nothing without that something about a woman.."


"She was playin' Cinderella, riding her first bike, bouncing on the bed looking for a pillow fight, running through the sprinkler with a big Popsicle grin, dancing with her dad lookin' up at him. In her eyes I'm just Prince Charming but to him I'm just some fella' ridin in stealing Cinderella."



They read me Cinderella.. I hoped it would come true, that one day my Prince Charming would come rescue me. I want to be the girl that you could love like that. 

She's My Kind Of Rain - Tim McGraw
Everything To Me - Brad Paisley
Something About A Woman - Jake Owen
Stealin' Cinderella - Chuck Wicks
I Can Love You Like That - John Michael Montgomery

Waiting for my fairy tale.  

The Minnow & The Trout

Help me out said the minnow to the trout
I was lost and found myself swimming in your mouth
Help me chief
I've got plans for you and me
I swear upon this riverbed
I'll help you feel young again

Not your every day circumstance
The hummingbird taking coffee with the ants



And I said
Please, I know that we're different
We were one cell in the sea in the beginning
And what we're made of was all the same once
We're not that different after all

Help me out said the eagle to the dove
I've fallen from my nest so high above
Help me fly
I am too afraid try
Now saddled with a fear of heights
I'm praying you can set me right

Not your everyday circumstance
The elephant sharing peanuts with the rats
And I said

Please, I know that we're different
We were one cell in the sea in the beginning
And what we're made of was all the same once
We're not that different after all


We are tied in history
Connected like a family

Please, I know that we're different
We were one cell in the sea in the beginning
And what we're made of was all the same once
We're not that different after all